Blessings In Me!

The enemy has a way of trying to intimidate us. I allowed him to get into my mind for a very long time. Afraid to be me, afraid to be who God has called me to be. God has reminded me that I am his and that he loves me, just like he loves each of you. Sometimes we have to remind ourselves of who we are in Christ. For a long time, I was embarrassed to show the world that I had found Christ. I wasn’t embarrassed by God but embarrassed of my own past. I had sinned so much that I allowed that to be my excuse for keeping quiet about God. I thought who would listen to me after all the things I had done? How can I be a witness of Christ after the sins I have committed? I thought people would always reflect on the bad and not the good.  Then I realized those were all seeds planted by the enemy. He knew that my testimony would touch others. He knew that my life would be an example no matter what I had done. It’s not too late to live for Christ. God has been good to me on countless occasi...

 Sometimes the very thing that breaks us will help push us closer to God. I have found myself so broken by past relationships. All God ever wanted was for me to put him first. I struggled with dating from a worldly view. It never worked for me. I realized that my relationships would always fail because they weren’t of God. I first needed to learn to love God as well as love myself. I needed to believe everything that God said about me. I had to stop settling for less. I increased my prayer life. I didn’t need to tell God what I wanted because he already knew what I needed. “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.”Jeremiah‬ ‭1:5‬ ‭NLT ‬‬. I stopped focusing on my relationship with men and directed that energy to God.  I prayed “Lord when you feel I am ready you know the type of man I need.” I decided that I didn’t want to just ”date”, but that I wanted to “court” with ...

I was a single mother who struggled with low self-esteem.  I didn’t love  myself. Seeking  attention from men by wearing  provocative clothing is what I did.  I had daddy issues!  Yes ,  I was blessed with a stepfather, but I have to admit I was envious of my siblings for having a biological father who loved them.  Having an absent father made me question “how can I trust God when I can’t trust my father here on earth? ”  Trying to fill that void of my “father’s love” I fell for any man who blinked my way.   Proverb 31:10 “A worthy woman who can find? For her price is far above rubies .” That scripture spoke volumes to me. Understanding how much God values and loves us changed me.  God looks at us to be more precious than rubies, how could we ever think less of ourselves? 1 Corinthians 6:19 -20  “Don’t you realize that your body  is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You d...

Do you know what your spiritual gift(s) are? God has instilled in each of us a spiritual gift. “A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other.” 1 Corinthians‬ ‭12:7‬. It took me a while to learn what my spiritual gifts were. It wasn’t until I gave God full access to my life that I learned. I was given the gift of exhortation, which is part of the reason I started this blog page. God showed me Luke 1:1-4 in a dream, which reads “Many people have set out to write accounts about the events that have been fulfilled among us. They used the eyewitness reports circulating among us from the early disciples. Having carefully investigated everything from the beginning, I also have decided to write an accurate account for you, most honorable Theophilus, so you can be certain of the truth of everything you were taught.” God was saying to me “your testimonies are your own eye witness report. Share your testimonies to draw people unto me.” I wanted women to find a connectio...

When you think you have lost yourself, God will always help you find your way back. I remember a time when I felt like my life was falling apart, but God was right there to remind me of my purpose. We can all use a reminder. One day I was in church physically, but mentally I was not there. I felt completely disconnected. So God sent one of the intercessors over to me. She started praying about everything I was going through during that season, but before ending the prayer God used her to remind me of who I was and how he views me. God used her to remind me of his promises. My trials and tribulations have a purpose. God needed me to just hold on and be content. He needed me to sit back and allow him to work through some things. I needed that reminder to find my self and aligned myself with Christ. As I put myself together and started trusting God; things were beginning to work in my favor. Some times we are in a hurry to get to the top or to correct our mistakes. God has our bac...

We all know by now that friendships don’t always last forever. Some friendships are just for a season. In that season God uses that person(s) to bring something out of you. I’m in a space in life where my circle of friends has changed. Although God has replaced the friends I have lost; I am truly grateful for each friendship. In this season God has given me friends that have become my sisters through Christ. Each one of them has played a part in my spiritual development; rather it is to hold me accountable for my thoughts and actions or to push me to new heights in my walk with Christ. God has given me sisters who won’t let me go back to partying and drinking alcohol. He has given me sisters to remind me of the spiritual gifts he has implanted in me. I shared this to say it is okay to lose friends because God will replace them with who you need in life. Although it may hurt or feel like a loss, it is actually a blessing. Each friendship helps build your character and integrity. T...

There are blessings that come with pain. I know you're reading this thinking "what blessing could possibly come from pain?" For my mothers out there, you've experienced contractions during childbirth, but after the contractions came a beautiful baby. What a blessing!! In my life, I have been a victim of situations most women my age would never survive. I trained my self to block out things that happened to me and to hide my emotions. I promised myself to never let anyone get too close to me. I feared being hurt. God gave me a dream to help me come to my senses. I would like to share it with you. In my dream I was walking with my friend and surrounding us was chaos. You can see people crying, buildings burning, and loud sirens. I could see my mother crying in the middle of the road and my family hovering over her. I asked "what's wrong?", but no one answered. It was like I wasn't even there. My friend then said, "turn around and look"....